I Need Someone to Talk to

Help?... I've pretty much come to terms with the fact that I need help. I'm sick of people telling me I do. I know. I'm just scared. I can't tell my parents. I cannot bring myself to do it. Obviously it's a big deal to me if I'd rather live my life, hating myself and struggling to get through every day. Well, not everyday. Some days I'm ok. But most I'm not. I just can't tell anyone. And I don't even want a professional help. I think if someone is paid to listen to my problems, they obviously don't care. They're just doing their job. So I'm not gonna waste my time.