I Need Advice

Okay, so, I have a best friend and a year or so ago, he came out to me and said he was bisexual. He told me really, honestly, not to tell anyone. I kept the promise, but I ride at a barn, and the girls there were teasing me about him liking me. So, I told them that he wasn't interested in me, especially because he felt attraction to guys as well. I thought it was okay, since it sort of got them off my back. Now, there's a horse show coming up in 3 days, and he and his family are coming to the show. As much as I can try, I don't think I can keep my friend and the other barn girls separated. I'm really afraid that they'll talk to him and tell him that I told them this stuff... when maybe I really shouldn't have. The guilt has been sort of eating me alive, and I'm getting mini-panic attacks over it. I don't have a legit excuse to say that he and his family can't come to the show, and they're coming to support me. I'm really worried that he'll get mad at me and stop being friends with me... I would understand it if he did, I just really don't want to lose him. What do you think I should do?

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Infinitive · 22-25, F

Alright, everyone. I have the best bestest best friend in the entire world and am so freaking grateful of his existence and role in my life.
I approached him after school today, (we go to different schools, so he's let out later than me. So I approached him as he walked past my house.) and said that I needed to tell him something. He was like, "Okay, what's up?" and I spilled the beans. I told him that I let it slip at the barn that he's bisexual and that I was honestly really sorry. I didn't blame it on anyone else, I told him exactly that it was my fault and I opened my big mouth and told people he didn't even know about his sexuality, something that should stay private. I had closed my eyes at one point while I was apologizing, and when I opened them, he started laughing.
Then, he said: "I really don't care."
Then I talked with him, and after he made fun of my outfit (neon green track pants, dark blue t-shirt, and a grey sweater. These are my comfy clothes, I still don't see what's wrong...) he told me that he honestly didn't care. I explained that I thought he would hate me for doing this, and he laughed at my panicking, and then gave me a hug.
I have the best best friend in the entire world. 🤗
Thank you all for your great advice.