Can It Get Any Worse?

Really! I've been planting seeds and trying to rebuild my life post surgery because as I feared, everything literally fell apart while I was in recovery. Personal training clients either went away or decided they liked the guy replacing me better. The company I work for is financially unstable and my boss's head has been elsewhere, which he acknowledged last week. He opened up to me as to why and I can actually relate in a sense. But it doesn't excuse him at all.

I'm looking for secondary jobs and I am trying to grow my private client base. I was swt to meet someone tomorrow morning until she told me today that her sister died. I can't fault her on that, clearly. But the irrational paranoia in me is actually wondering if that was a lie. If that's too much then please let me know.

I feel like I'm dying. So many setbacks as I'm actually trying to accomplish shit. I don't know what to do.