I Hate Myself For Letting Him Hurt Me

Strange behavior on my part, still leaves me confused. Our friendship went on for years, it dragged and dragged draining me physically and mentally. Still with each fight, I forgave him I believed in our bond of friendship.

Why?
Why would I keep shutting the door only to let him back in? Why do I feel the need to give him a thousand chances to reform? Something is definitely wrong with me but what is it?

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LadyWioness · 56-60, F

Perhaps nothing. You have a big heart. You just need to learn where to draw the line of what you will tolerate. If he's toxic, and abusive, I suggest you nail that door shut, forever.

Mguinm · 51-55, F

@LadyWioness: Well said

LadyWioness · 56-60, F

@mguinm: thank you. :)

FarAway · 56-60, F

@LadyWioness: After all this time, countless tears it took a small insignificant statement from him that struck something in me. Its like I saw the light or something. His out, now its final