I Hate Myself

I used to think that if I just lost weight I'd like myself more, but now that I have I still can't stand the sight of me. I've always wanted to look like my adopted family, or to just be white. I thought I'd grow out of it after my teens but I feel the same. I don't know how to change.

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xSharp · 31-35, M

i know what you mean, looking at the rest of my race destroy themselves and their children in the process disgusts me, to share the same skin with them is a horrible feeling, but we are the only hope our peoples have of not being seen exclusively as fuck ups. so stand tall and be proud, not just for your sake but for the sake of those who came before and all those who will come after.

Verity · 31-35, F

I don't really know what you're talking about? Can you explain what you mean?

xSharp · 31-35, M

@Verity: self hate is a terrible feeling and it can be imposed by no fault of your own. you have to change others opinion, you need to show them you are more than what they can see, educate yourself and be healthy, be the best you can be.

Verity · 31-35, F

@xSharp: That's the thing, it's not about others, it's just me. My perceptions. Rationally I know it's wrong, but I can't seem to change it deep down....

xSharp · 31-35, M

@Verity: oh yes you can, i know because i have changed mine. perceptions change literally all the time. do you meditate?