It truly makes me feel like such a piece of shit.

Not at all. You don’t have to cry to grief.

Took me three days to finally cry after my father passed. I was too busy being strong for my mother and sister to really let it register. It will be ok.

That is not true and he would hate to hear you say things like that about yourself

You are probably in shock 💙

Grief is stifling and heavy. Sometimes it pours out, other times it freezes. One isn't more or less valid than the other

Tears are a manifestation of the emotion, not the emotion itself. You know what you feel regardless of tears.

you're not you're just numb and in shock