Should I kill myself??

I hate myself, I don't understand why anyone would hang around with me, stay with me or like me. I'm just nothing that wants to die. I am ugly- The boys in my class would bully me, The only reason I have friends it's cuz my friends push me to make friends. I hate my family, I hate my friends. Why did I even have friends, to begin with? I am annoying, loud, mean, ugly, selfish, and rude. I wish I was dead. I should've jumped when I had a chance. I have bad grades, Well not bad- I just have 70-100. I hate seeing people being better than me- every time I try to do my best, I fail and everyone will notice since I would say I'll always pass. I hate the girls in my class, they are so much prettier- I wish I was like that. I wish I was smart. I wish I'm old enough to drive and have money to off myself. I wish someone would kill me. I wish my favorite anime would be real so I can jump off the nice building with a character. I wish everyone liked me.