is it just me?

i've been feeling like absolute shit lately, and i just wanna rant about it here because i believe no one's gonna judge me here. have you ever felt like you have absolutely nothing, but at the same time feel like you have so much? like whenever i start feeling down and hating everything basically, and blaming myself and whatever, i'd always tell myself, 'hey you know what, you better stop crying and being sad because other people have it worse, so you shouldn't even be crying.'. and recently i think because of this and my overthinking, i've been feeling so shitty and unmotivated and just so annoyed with everything lately, and it makes me hate myself even more because i have so much im supposed to be appreciative for yet im grumbling and being annoyed at things. of course also, it might just be because im going through a lot of things rn... idk tbh. it just hurts to see that im not meeting my expectations ive set for myself and not doing great things and having great things, and seeing other people always be happy and whatsoever. i know what i see is not fully what others are going through but i just can't help it you know? i really hate myself lol