I Hate Myself

why bother explaining, my reasons are my own, and in the end that's all that matters. I'm sorry to anyone I have hurt in the past, those I have hurt today, and those whom I will hurt in the future. until the reaper shows up I guess I'll be sitting here fucking things up. everyone fights for the idea that I can do good, even me. we all need to accept a lose cause when we see it.

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eponymous601

I battled self-loathing into my 30s. I am sorry for the pain you are feeling. I wish I had an answer for you and I could tell you how to make it stop, but I don't. Just know that eventually it will.I had this constant loop in my head telling myself how worthless I was. In fact, I once said there wasn't anything someone can say that was worse than things I said about myself. For me, healing took distancing myself from my parents. Once I was able to distance those relationships I was able to find peace. But I would suggest starting with a counselor you feel comfortable talking to. But never, ever doubt that you are a person of worth! And only the most sensitive and kind peoplecare to this degree what others think of them. Most people just don't give a damn what people think and the world can tell.