I Hate Myself

Take a deep breath, and find a way to calm yourself. You'll be able to find why life is worth living when you have a clear head.
I've had a tough life, but I continue with it because of what I always wanted to do in life. I want to have a loving family. With a man I love and to have children. I always wanted to be a mother. I want to see my future children do amazing things. And I know there's somebody I want to spend the rest of my life with. I just hope the man I'm with now. Is truly the one. Because I don't want anyone else after him:) and so far we have been doing pretty good

Hang in there and when you have good days (you will) remember them and hold onto that feeling for the down times. You are young, you are supposed to have trial and error. You will find your strengths. Mistakes and setbacks are part of growing up. Please allow yourself to mature. I suspect you will have an incredible life ahead. One day at a time.....

You don't ruin anything. You might think you do, but it will end up okay