I Hate Myself

Just a warning- This might be long and you don't have to reply if you don't want to. I am just ranting and hoping to find someone who maybe can relate to me.

I look in the mirror and I see the flaws. I see a person who has lost hope. I see a person that from a young age, had this self hatred that was slowly developing over time and continues to get worse each day.

My friends make me feel like I am not wanted. I compare myself to them all the time and compared to them I feel like I am nothing.

I overeat daily because I lost respect for myself. I believe that being postive helps but when I put positive thoughts next to my negative ones it all feels pointless, because in the end I feel like a waste of space.

I feel unlovable. I feel like I am nothing special. I feel like a fat piece of crap that has no future. My family doesn't think I have a future either anyway.

Truth is that I don't like the word hate. I feel like it is too powerful of a word. I don't even hate the one person that hurt me the most in this world but I do hate myself.

lmiller7 · 26-30, F

I can relate,and you are so bful in your pic.I had bullyies since kindergarten so I understand.You need to love yourself first and understand you are bless,their is so many sick kids and people in this world,some people born ill and have to spend the rest of their lives that way.Beauty is inside always, get new friends you don't need them,you are already complete alone. And there are really good friends out their,but you need to let the negative people go.We must must surround ourselves with positive people.Be a friend to make new friends.❤,you can message me anytime.