Idk what’s wrong with me

Idk what’s wrong with me. I’m tired of myself… ever since I hit college I seem to have anger issues and I keep being mad at my father quickly. Then my mother is mad at me for changing my mind about transferring schools quickly then today my father is mad at me for not taking his bp, I was playing a game that will afk me if I don’t move my character, and ik it’s not a good enough excuse but it’s not an excuse, I honestly just feel frustrated that my mother is mad at me and then my father… Ifk how but anger seems to become my shield when I feel vulnerable, I don’t want others even if my parents to see me vulnerable. I’d rather they see a bad child, yet, it hurts. I wish someone could just see through this and help me get better… I hate being this way yet I can’t even control myself, it seems to be a default in my settings as a human, then I don’t even know if I can study this second sem… haha… I worry about my father’s financial problems with his loans, I worry about my studies and the fact that I feel like I forgot our school lessons already, then everything is falling apart right now, I wish I could do something…