Giving up is copping out. No matter how difficult it is, how much struggle it entails, let the warrior in you beat the shit out of every challenge and obstacle that gets in your way. There are little kids with cancer valiantly fighting daily to beat that monster because life is a gift, something you may not appreciate at the moment but that will change when you find the purpose for living. You must actively seek it though. Your sexual orientation or status is not a hindrance unless you make it one. Don't give importance to people who discriminate, you suffer what you allow abusers to do. People should live and let live and you need to focus on living and not contemplate ending it. Live for the adventure, Be brave and wise.