am i the problem?

Since you're young take this life lesson for free. There will always be people who have what you don't, who achieves what you don't.

What determines who you are, is how you respond to it.

Are you:

A) Going to compare yourself to others for the rest of your life and just be bitter and miserable and stuck in self pity.

B) Own it. Take life adversities as feedback, not failure and not an indication on your worth.

{@academicfailure] nothing you have done at all that has always been the law of the jungle in school colleges university . some people have more personal attraction and are more popular with people for whatever reason interlect

You are your own person. Don't compare yourself to others. Just do the best you can do, and find your own way and be yourself. You don't need to be better then someone else. Just your own best self.

Life is so much bigger then beating other people at life. Idk.

As hard as it may be, you should be happy for your cousin. That attitude will automatically push you into the Top 10.