I want to have an affair

When i was with my ex for 6 years i felt this way. He was such a jerk and i knew at some point id leave him. I tried to work with him for so many years. I also missed the giddiness and excitement of a new love unfolding but no matter who its with it will change because its just lust not love. I think when people think its love they will be disappointed to realise they wil go through many lovers in a lifetime and never find "the one" because thats not love. Its like being excited about the possibilities and not who they really are. Or infatuated with their looks until its routine and the shock value is gone. Thats when love comes in. When your heart stops racing and you she their raw selves maybe a year later and you say to yourself, i wouldnt change a thing.