I like myself, but I'm well aware that I'm not first choice.

Yeah I felt that one, Thought I found my soulmate, and getting that close to someone, only for them to be the same as everyone else in the end, i've always hated people and found the idea of relationships a little stupid, but i feel even stupider for believing that i could ever find something like that, let alone keep it. The worst part is learning to be on my own again, the days feel slower and a lot more empty, but i'd rather deal with this the rest of my life than even think about risking the amount of heartbreak again.

Don't get down on yourself, don't let the Holiday depression set in.

Don't get depressed, leave everything to God, he's got better plans

I hope that you do find someone to put you first though. You deserve that.

Also I can’t believe the people in the comments telling you how you feel. Like what?