Was he just being nice?

@HikingMan The worst thing is if someone stops contacting me or like me, after they learn I'm not anything what I seem. I am genuinely kind and smile, but they don't know how chronic my anxiety is😟 I doubt many guys would stay with someone they couldn't do many fun dates with, travel etc. and it would reaffirm im not enough. I'm sure there's a small amount who wouldn't leave, but it's daunting knowing many would.

@Baybreeze So, simple rejection?
But therein lies the problem doesn't it.

You're so worried about an initial rejection that you can't bring yourself to a place that makes the rejection you just spoke about even close to reality.

"It is better to have loved and lost, than to not love at all."
Though that isn't even my point because for you this fear has gone viral inside of yourself and you are struggling to make any new Real-Life Friends who would honestly be just friends and offer you their advice and support without any expectations of you at all.

Personally, I think you're fantastic and worthy of friendships and love and I really do hope you face these fears and insecurities of yours and get back into the game that is real world connections.

It's my hope that if you ever come across some sly devil type of guy that just wants to be your friend and help you to face an overcome these types of things in a soft and gentle manner that you take the chance to meet and stay or walk away because he wasn't holding you to anything but a place and time.

Anyways, if any such proposal comes up, I think you should consider it.

A person could spend 3 years in therapy just scratching at their surfaces that itch.
We all heal in the real world next to people that care and are willing to listen.
Therapists are ujst bullshit translators that take your money, don't really care, and profit for as long as you go unhealed....

Peace to you, my very lovely and magnificent friend.

@Docdon23 I wish I could but I'd be mortified if I were way off about his feelings. 😟

@uncalled4 no ones really interested in me, but in past yes. And that's true, it could have been either nice or flirty. Thanks.

@EldritchFox I think it kind of funny the way a lot of us here give advice knowing that if only we could take it we'd be better off ourselves.

Not saying that's what you just did. Your reply just made me feel like typing this reply.

@HikingMan yeah that's true. I do try to just be upfront..

I think my anxiety makes me very forward because I'd rather know than live in the suspense of not knowing.

@WanderingHelplessly I'm very kind and smile back.. I just don't add additional conversation. But again he hasn't actually started any conversation...so he probably was just being nice😔

@Baybreeze That might be. I was just guessing. Maybe add something to see what happens. Up to you.

@Sapio He probably in a year would have said something more if he did. But it's ok..ty 🦋