turning away from the screen.

So, been single for awhile now. A very long while. I've been okay with it. Lonely sometimes, sure, but I've been okay.

I was just watching a show. The main couple went to give each other a kiss. Nothing hot and heavy, quick little "bye I love you" peck. and I without thinking about it, looked away from the screen. Kinda caught myself and thought, that's weird, why'd I do that?

Started thinking back and realized I've been doing this for awhile now. Show or movie, the couple goes in for a kiss, I turn my head away.

I realized I'm jealous of fictional couples now. Maybe I'm not as okay with this anymore as I thought I was