Did I f up by scheduling a massage and pedicure on the anniversary of my late wife's and unborn son's death?

I have been wanting to get a massage and pedi for a while now. I called a place that I can get them done in one place. After I got off the phone is when it hit me. I have been trying to not think about her during this time of year as it makes me super depressed. Now I make an appointment out of town about an hour and a half away. I have the tendency to think alot when I am driving......