I miss having a partner tbh

@SageWanderer Likewise.. I was sure I wanted to commit, then when I entertained the idea, I realized, holly shit! not really! Well truth is, I will be ready, with the right one.

What do you mean about yourself, like you want more to offer than you are ready to receive ..?

For me it is like somehow I am looking more for a partner in the mission to save the world, other than have a romantic affair, if that makes sense to you?

@Boeing its probably more companionship for me. I had a forty year relationship with my soul mate so everything is judged by that standard.

And not that I wish to say that every woman is like this however my experience lately involves “honey do lists” or “our” meaning my assets.

Maybe I expected too much too soon. Or my expectations no longer match the reality of the world.

@SageWanderer yes I see, after having this soul level connection it is now different to start with someone you just met, coming with different stories and expectations...
But don't be too quick to judge, sometimes I think humans can be stressed in the beginning. Of course I don't know the situation....

During the summer I met someone that after years, finally someone ignited in me the wish to commit. But I could see there was a karmic something. I am not sure I like it, actually it made it seem less of a free choice, but I decided, and so what, I will just go on and see. He turned out rejecting me, I think I might have been too much for him, and most probably for the best.

@Boeing You have the intuition to know when things are right for you or not. I think you may have intimated him therefore the rejection.

@SageWanderer yes I did intimidate him. He couldn't comprehend how a person can be living in a tent surviving on carobs and being as radiant as I was. For my birthday, a friend borrowed me an orange overall, I took a bath and looked my best. He saw me and commented on how, dressed in rugs or fancy, I am the same and it was a hard thing to his eyes, I bet. I bet too, he had perhaps sometime to be genuinely seen. He wasn't ready or courageous enough to pursue me, but to his defence, I might have been complicated. He was more fun and lighthearted. I'm telling you we were making a nice balance hahaha not meant to be. Ah well.