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Fighting to Stay Married [I Am Married But Lonely]

We've been married for almost a year and a half and together for almost 5 and a half. Things have never been without falter. We're human and neither of us is perfect. But the last couple months, really since covid began it's been rough.

We're at a point now where neither of us want to leave the other, but I'm the only one being affectionate and fighting to keep this marriage together.

He says his mind is just full of various thoughts regarding his previous marriage (how his ex wife treated him), my mother and her negativity (constantly stating my husband would cheat on me with his ex because they do holidays and birthdays together[I'm included]), wanting to move back to his home in the Caribbean but being unable to because of his two kids from his previous marriage... and with all these thoughts in his mind, it has left him feeling empty and heavy and unhappy but unsure how to fix it.

The uncertainty of how to fix his problems has left him distant and more unaffectionate than usual. We have only short conversation except when we talk about where our relationship is going. I just feel the sense of solitude and loneliness. And we sleep in the same bed, come home to each other, have dinner together. I miss my husband...

I'm tempted to leave him. But I love him and the life we have, I want to keep fighting. But I don't know if I can when he is unsure how to fix his issues...
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Lilliesandlight · 41-45, F
I know what this loneliness feels like. I can't say what to do, except that you can't wait for long for things to get better. If you don't have kids and you are both miserable then there is no reason to stay. It would be better to leave and start fresh than to waste years of your life. You don't want to look back 10 yrs from now with regret
PhantomSphynkter · 31-35, F
@Lilliesandlight I think about that a lot, the idea I could be wasting years of my life. We do have a child together and he has two kids that I've known at this point for half of their lives so there's attachment there. But I know that I can't use the kids as an excuse to stay. That could lead to them seeing toxicity and normalizing it. But I also see potential in him, even if it's distant.