Anyone else like this?

I find that as long as I don't look down, I don't get height vertigo, even though the thought of falling is on my mind.

The problem is looking down is impulsive. I knew that being safe means focusing on where I land my feet but my gaze always wanders off to the bottom of the gulf. It is extremely annoying.

Same to being on top of a building. Always looking down like it makes any difference