I’m starting to feel sorry for the father of my child he seems lonely and kinda bitter. Although he is kind to me most of the time.
I haven’t been with the father of my child since 2012. Since then I have been married divorced and dated other men. I moved back to the state him and my son live in, and he is very sweet guy, sometimes grumpy, and he is always there for me. I just don’t feel attraction to him like I did years ago. I was a teen when I met him he was my first real boyfriend. I moved on when I met my ex husband and my type changed. Here’s why I feel sad or bad for my sons father, he has some incel views now I guess from being single and not finding the right girl he always has weird bitter comments about women. I have been through so much with men but I never say nasty things about them. I also have resentment for my sons father because he allowed me to be homeless after my divorce. I literally had to sleep on my car, and even ended up assualted and in a shelter. But I don’t blame him. I’m finally back on my feet, and of course now that I’m doing better he wants me and he’s being nice and he keeps saying he feels like he gets nothing in return when he fixes something on my car. Just creep comments. Part of me feels like I should do something se* xual for him so he can stop making me feel guilty. I’m just unpacking a lot and I feel like if the men I chose to marry, or have a child with really cared about me then why was I homeless? I actually would never do that to him if it was on the other shoe. Don’t feel sorry for me, I ended up in that position because I went back to my ex husband and it didn’t workout. I’m doing much better now I just still feel bad for my oldest sons father because it seems like he is lonely and sad and because he is so grumpy and mean spirit now I can’t build a bond with him to even form attraction. Cause he keeps insinuating that he wants to sleep with me. Mentally as a woman I can’t sleep with anyman eho neglected me or let me suffer. I’m healed from that. I even try to be a friend to him but then he tries to make moves on me and I’m just not seeing him in that way. Usually this stuff happens to women, I feel bad that I’m not interested in a man I had a child with our son is so precious and handsome. We really made a great child. Sometimes I do daydream about if we would’ve stayed together and had more children and I never married someone else. But when I’m around him I can’t see him in that way. I also don’t want to latch on to him just because I’m single because I’m actually enjoying being single. If I’m wrong I’m wrong.