Here We Go Again

I hate myself for not being strong enough to kick him out of my life for good.He does not make an effort to contact me daily or meet me at least once a week.His reason being he has plenty of other things on his mind.

He will just not respond to texts and calls when we're supposed to meet but he doesn't want to. He says it's because he knows I will be upset and there will be drama.

I actually blocked him for a while but I unblocked him because I am weak.If I'm being honest,I'm still hopeful that things will work out between us.

I actually asked him how it will make him feel if I did the same thing to him.He said that he will not feel good about it yet he still continues doing the same thing.

I asked to check each other's mobile phones but he obviously refused.He says he wants to marry me but his actions tell me something else.

I know I'm stupid and I should not allow him to continue treating me this way.The sad pathetic thing is even after all this,I still love him.😢😭

This page is a permanent link to the reply below and its nested replies. See all post replies »

Elisbch · M Best Comment

It appears that bitterness and trust in this relationship are already broken and resentments are already growing quickly for both of you.
Beating yourself up over being weak is not going to help yourself esteem.

Neither is he.

You need to trust yourself when you hear that voice inside you say [i]" I can do better."[/i]

I can't say for certain but it feels like he's "getting off" on winning the power struggle with you and if so, he will definitely play that until you say No More and walk away.

Don't let this guy strip all pride and dignity from you. You don't deserve it!

Do you have some lady friends that you can get together with occasionally and have fun with? You need to focus on something that is going to benefit you and spending time with other friends is healthier than this Merry-Go-Round he has you on. If you go out with friends, be sure to leave [i]all of him[/i] out of your fun or that subject will keep popping up and you won't enjoy yourself.

Start trying to do things that make [b][i]you[/i][/b] feel good. Let these things fill the [i]toxic void[/i] that he's [u]insistent[/u] on providing for you.

I wish you a lot of luck 👍🏻🙏🏻! You have to make a lot of this luck happen but you can do it.

I have been in your shoes before. Change the shoes and you'll change your future.

I'm available 🤷😊😄.... (just kidding).... but there are other men that I think are a lot healthier for you out there. 🤗😊.
Go get yourself back together and look for those other men! 😉😊👍🏻

BitterSoul · 41-45, F

@Elisbch Great advice!Thanks for making me smile!

Elisbch · M

Thank you for BC. 🙂🌻. That's very nice of you!
I'm glad I was able to help you smile. 🙂 .. @BitterSoul