He said marriage counseling or he’s getting a divorce. We start tomorrow. Lmaoo
Im really just going cause I want to be able to talk to the therapist but he waited until things got really bad to where I actually feel weird around him and it feels like we’re over doing our stay with each other. I told him these things. Like everytime I look at him I remember the nasty things he said to me.
When I try to work I remember his voice making fun of my job. When I try to stay home and play with our son I have flash backs of him calling me lazy or saying everything is paid with his money. Not true because even though he made it to where I can stay home I work for extra things and I furnished the whole apartment. I drive my car and I hear his voice telling me I wouldn’t have a car if it wasn’t for him. Then I hear a sad song and tears full up in my eyes and I have to pull over and take a break. Also lately I’m Leary of his kind gestures because I never know when it’s going to get blown up in my face. Like now he’s lovebombing again buying gifts I didn’t ask him to get, telling me how much he spent on my valentines presents. Honestly we don’t have it like that for him to even be bragging. I love him but love isn’t enough when respect is gone. I try to show respect for him but then he does something and I guess I get ptsd and freak out cause I never know if he’s going to blame things on me again and act like I’m over reacting.
Also he honestly believes he can make a marriage work with me even thought he told me he lacks empathy for me and empathy in general his words. I told him it does show in his actions and he said he doesn’t need empathy to love me or be with me. It’s the little things like one time when I was sleep the head board fell on my head and it hurt so bad I cried he looked at me and said ohh. Are you ok well it fell on me too. (His words)
Then if I try to talk to him and I say one wrong thing he doesn’t like he tells me to get out his face and if I don’t stop talking immediately when he says he yells at me. So now I’m tired of talking and I asked him to move out but now he came up with some ultimatum that it’s either therapy or a divorce. I just want to see if therapy would actually help but I’ve heard you shouldn’t go into therapy with a covert narcissist.
When I try to work I remember his voice making fun of my job. When I try to stay home and play with our son I have flash backs of him calling me lazy or saying everything is paid with his money. Not true because even though he made it to where I can stay home I work for extra things and I furnished the whole apartment. I drive my car and I hear his voice telling me I wouldn’t have a car if it wasn’t for him. Then I hear a sad song and tears full up in my eyes and I have to pull over and take a break. Also lately I’m Leary of his kind gestures because I never know when it’s going to get blown up in my face. Like now he’s lovebombing again buying gifts I didn’t ask him to get, telling me how much he spent on my valentines presents. Honestly we don’t have it like that for him to even be bragging. I love him but love isn’t enough when respect is gone. I try to show respect for him but then he does something and I guess I get ptsd and freak out cause I never know if he’s going to blame things on me again and act like I’m over reacting.
Also he honestly believes he can make a marriage work with me even thought he told me he lacks empathy for me and empathy in general his words. I told him it does show in his actions and he said he doesn’t need empathy to love me or be with me. It’s the little things like one time when I was sleep the head board fell on my head and it hurt so bad I cried he looked at me and said ohh. Are you ok well it fell on me too. (His words)
Then if I try to talk to him and I say one wrong thing he doesn’t like he tells me to get out his face and if I don’t stop talking immediately when he says he yells at me. So now I’m tired of talking and I asked him to move out but now he came up with some ultimatum that it’s either therapy or a divorce. I just want to see if therapy would actually help but I’ve heard you shouldn’t go into therapy with a covert narcissist.
31-35, F
