Damn, this was a long read. I may not be in the position where you are, but I get it when a woman wants something and they should be more respected. And I respect you because you have a purpose. Here's what I think you should do:

If he's truly sorry about what he said, about all the things he said, then it's good enough to forgive him. BUT if he keeps going on about his mind was all over places and keeps doing the mistakes that hinders your goals, then you CANNOT hesitate to forgive him. Just move on. It's almost compared to that of cheating: if he messed up, then you can forgive, but may lose the trust. Cheat on you again, and you go elsewhere. Like I said, move on.

I see that you have a bright future and you don't wanna waste time with someone holding you back. You deserve more than that. It'll be both phsically and emotionally sick if you keep going down the road with someone less... stable. Still, that guy was willing to love you in most ways, he didn't have to "impress" you. Many women want a man, or other women, that can really do something legitimate rather than to try. Almost sounds like the guy, or girl, isn't trying. I would honestly let myself be single and to keep going forward to achieve a dream, but if you want someone that shares with your ambitions, then relationships like that would work.

You do have a right to chose, though. You can forgive and hope he'll change, and some people can and will change, or move on to your own will and to find a better man more reasonable. It's basically my point I'm trying to cross. It's your call. 👌

I have been with some very angry men with a lot of issues. Personally I'd just like a guy who was kind and laid back but still able to keep his shit together so it didn't fall on me to pick up the mess he makes (physically and emotionally). A lot of men want a mother rather than a gf it seems. Someone who wont leave no matter how awful they are to them. I'm pretty devoted when I love, I just want that to be appreciated.

If a guy makes mistakes and says sorry, forgive him. But if he continues to make the same mistakes then just walk away. The more you let someone get away with, the more they'll push it.

Listen to your instincts on this. Does it take more than you are comfortable with? Does it leave you tired and sad to deal with him all the time? Are you giving more than he does?

When woman set their standards unreasonably High and then dig their heels in and refuse to settle for a decent man they eventually pass the critical age when they have lost their youth and no longer have their high fertility..

That's when they no longer have the ability to attract a decent man and instead of holding out doggedly for Mr Perfect they find themselves on their knees desperate for mr he will do..

They then either go with the lower quality man and spend the rest of their lives regretting the Mr decent they kicked to the Kerb.. Which ends up making them and their mr he will do partner miserable..

OR

They then decide marriage and a Baby is not for them and they spend the rest of their lives with their cats or dogs lonely and regretting that they kicked mr decent to the kerb..

First, don't take any advice from me. I went with attraction and chemistry every time, and found out later on that sick cheating abusive liars can be very attractive...at first.

I cut your list to more simpler terms. Someone who is kind hearted, respectable and a decent hard working man. That sums it up for me.

I don't see anything unreasonable in the traits you're seeking. I think most of us guys would like to be that guy - and we'd like to find a woman with your traits.

But I'm not giving any advice till I see the blog you posted several times and then deleted. The one on intuition.My hunch is there were some uncomfortable truths in those words.

Goodness that is a very tall order ...good luck !

You listened to your gut feeling I wish I had!

Dream or women exist. People just ignore them. Someone could genuinely love you without any expectations. But you would choose on the other factors.

Choose what feels right in your heart. Finding a great guy again can take longer than you think

Was once. No more