It's been rough for days. Been crying occasionally. I'm really tired of this.

There's so much swarming in my head. Everything has been humbling in a shitty way like being flat out broke and having to ask for help, seeing everyone my age ahead of the game living their life on their own, girlfriend is just semi-present now (hustling with my dream job), and life's just been giving me the finger now, which my past is starting to haunt again...I just feel completely worthless. It's a wonder how I just can't bring myself to jumping off a cliff, things so shitty like they are.

I just need to face it somehow...that's what I'll do tomorrow and the upcoming days. Something just needs to change. I'm going to talk to my girl soon and figure that out, going to go on a job hunt again, and eventually get my own place. I can't deal anymore.