Would you give up if you were in my shoes?

I've been speaking to someone online for 13-14 months, we have not yet met because of his insecurities despite me starting to push recently. We also have been drifting the last two months, and I expressed myself last night for the first time as I'm normally too scared, I told him that I'm constantly on edge, I asked loads of questions which he did not answer. He just told me that I'm only thinking about myself, his responses to constant paragraphs were pretty cold and only a couple of words, very different how he used to act and he just said "ok" when I said a very caring, loving goodnight to him... not sure what to do, you probably think I'm stupid for waiting this long, but I'm now running out of patience and feeling insecure in myself. What would you do, would you of given up by now?