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Jesuscentreoflife · 56-60, M
I have not and here’s why:
The long and short of it is that in my heart I was alway close to Jesus but the world taught me that:
What you feel,
Developing your higher self,
And other such moral secular platitudes are more important and could make me a better person.
That all started falling apart when I grew angry, bitter and resentful towards my wife because we couldn’t have children and she, and I understand why, didn’t want to adopt.
There were times when I relished the idea of a divorce so that I could find a nice submissive Christian woman (another failure I could rail at my wife for, she is definitely a good person but one for whom the church has desperately failed.)
As time went on though I realized I made my vows before God and He is the only one who can redeem this marriage or dissolve it if that is His will. My wife loves me with her whole heart and with Jesus on the throne of my heart I submit myself to God’s will.
Not my will oh Lord, but thine be done!!!!
I so wanted to be a father, but I must tear that superficially noble idol out of my heart for it is not God’s will for me.
Every day, with God’s unfailing grace I step towards being more like Jesus but I am far from perfect.
The long and short of it is that in my heart I was alway close to Jesus but the world taught me that:
What you feel,
Developing your higher self,
And other such moral secular platitudes are more important and could make me a better person.
That all started falling apart when I grew angry, bitter and resentful towards my wife because we couldn’t have children and she, and I understand why, didn’t want to adopt.
There were times when I relished the idea of a divorce so that I could find a nice submissive Christian woman (another failure I could rail at my wife for, she is definitely a good person but one for whom the church has desperately failed.)
As time went on though I realized I made my vows before God and He is the only one who can redeem this marriage or dissolve it if that is His will. My wife loves me with her whole heart and with Jesus on the throne of my heart I submit myself to God’s will.
Not my will oh Lord, but thine be done!!!!
I so wanted to be a father, but I must tear that superficially noble idol out of my heart for it is not God’s will for me.
Every day, with God’s unfailing grace I step towards being more like Jesus but I am far from perfect.