Just venting

I think today is when I realized how much I really didn’t mean shit to this person that I was so mad in love with. It’s like everytime I tried to prove how much I loved and cared about them it’s like she never saw It. She would just listen to what other had to say but she never really appreciated me or took into consideration about how I felt. It was about how she felt and when I try venting about how I feel it’s always turned around and an argument happens. I even tried expressing how unimportant I felt to her and she literally ignored it and I finally said I was done. I can’t do this to myself anymore. This shit hurts so bad.

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Sigh... Some people are very very selfish. In the long run you realize it's better that you end everything with them. If they make you feel like you don't exist... You're better alone than with them. It hurts badly yes. Hugs hope you feel better

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@SW-User this ☝

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I'm sorry this happened to you. I am in a similar situation with my own particular person. She's not the same all the time. She's split.
One moment she'll tell me how much she loves and misses me, the next I don't even cross her mind. Even when I try to reach her, the other personas don't really care for me. :/ It's a fucking rollercoaster for sure.

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@Lostinconfusion I wish it was that easy but it is incredibly complicated.

Lostinconfusion · 22-25, F

@SW-User yeah I know how u feel right now I’m in the same situation but you gotta realize when enough is enough

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@Lostinconfusion I know. This person didn't just steal my heart and ran. She is a close friend too. I made a promise she wouldn't lose me over her metal state just like she did for me because we are the same way to different degrees. She has it worse than I do.
I just can't drop her for being like me. :/

She and I didn't mean to but we hurt each other's souls so bad we split off from each other. What is that like?

A part of you wants her. Always. You're loyal and you still love her. You still care.

At the same time, the other part of you is hurt and bleeding even when she tells you she loves you. That sense of loss never goes away even when in reality you didn't lose her. You still talk but it's not the same anymore.

Now take that and apply it to me and her. A fracture of our souls love each other, the rest is so broken and hurt that it can't stand it.

I know...it is one big mess. :/ You're right though. I need to let her go somehow.

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Thank you for best answer 🙂

Lostinconfusion · 22-25, F

@SW-User thank you for ur honest answer.

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