Having a crush is weird
I don't know if I'm just weird but it feels borderline creepy when I have a crush.
I just take too many glances at their direction just to see them whatever they're doing.
It's like I become hyper aware whenever they're around. Eventually picking up patterns on their routine, who they hangout with, and places that they like to frequent. Sometimes, I subconsciously want to follow them but I would NEVER go as far as stalking of course because that is creepy and violating.
I also notice that I think I developed some kind of quirk (?) That whenever I look up, it just so happens that they are a few seconds away into coming into my view.
But then again like a real torpe, end up never talking to this person even once and don't even want to interact with this person because I'm just feeling whatever this is without doing something about it. Which makes me wonder how I even developed feelings that easily.
Sometimes I wish I could turn off my crushy feelings like a light switch because it's just so inconvenient most of the time.
Please tell me I'm weird or not, I don't even know how to deal 🥲
I just take too many glances at their direction just to see them whatever they're doing.
It's like I become hyper aware whenever they're around. Eventually picking up patterns on their routine, who they hangout with, and places that they like to frequent. Sometimes, I subconsciously want to follow them but I would NEVER go as far as stalking of course because that is creepy and violating.
I also notice that I think I developed some kind of quirk (?) That whenever I look up, it just so happens that they are a few seconds away into coming into my view.
But then again like a real torpe, end up never talking to this person even once and don't even want to interact with this person because I'm just feeling whatever this is without doing something about it. Which makes me wonder how I even developed feelings that easily.
Sometimes I wish I could turn off my crushy feelings like a light switch because it's just so inconvenient most of the time.
Please tell me I'm weird or not, I don't even know how to deal 🥲
