I Have Been Cheated On, But Never Cheated On Anyone

May 3rd 2017.
The day elliott broke my heart.
I got with him on the 21st of October back in 2012. Things were great, I could see a wonderful future for us.
It was never meant to be... He had cheated on me for an entire week without me knowing. His plan was to take me on holiday (that i had paid my way for) and then abandon me the week after. Turns out he dragged the relationship on for a year because i was someone for company.

I did everything that he asked of me! I dressed how he wanted, i acted how he wanted, Heck i was his bloody lap dog. He drilled it into my head that i wouldn't survive without him.

6 months later, His relationship with the psycho is falling apart and i feel bad that i like this sorta news. Karma is doing her work but she needs to do more!!!

So now i work my days away in hope someone will accept me for what I've been through and help me find out who i really am

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PhoenixPhail · M

People love you for who you are, not what you can give them. And I know so well that agenda of giving people what they ask for because you want them to be happy. It's a bottomless pit. You can never fill it. You can know, Elliott will continue chasing shadows, never finding true love. You don't have to do the same by continuing to sell yourself in an attempt to satisfy other people's agendas. Find who you truly are and share that with other people. The ones who don't find in you what they're needing in order to be satisfied, will fall away. Don't worry about then. And those who are in a place of wanting to relate to YOU, NOT to what you have, will be attracted to you. You will find it the solution to evolving your circle of friends. I think you'll be a lot happier operating that way.

ShadowGothicGirl · 26-30, F

@PhoenixPhail I understand the majority of what you've said. I am slowly making progress as Im working on my appearance mainly so i can look how i want to look - My communication skills have improved a lot but people seem to take things the incorrect way sometimes (i don't understand how they take it the incorrect way)
i have my sister and my little squad and my little work family that have been supporting me. I was really shocked about how supportive they were as I've never received such treatment.
umm as an example a good friend of mine said ''You look drop dead gorgeous'' i had no clue how to respond as i never had that sort of thing said to me by elliott.

PhoenixPhail · M

@ShadowGothicGirl I'm glad you're making progress, and it's good to like your appearance. Better communication skills are always good, and it's what you communicate that's most important.

Yes, people take things the way they do. There's nothing you can do about that. But there [b][i]is[/i][/b] something you can do about being authentic. Just be yourself. Everything in that depertment is fine. Be as drop dead gorgeous on the inside as you are on the outside.

ShadowGothicGirl · 26-30, F

@PhoenixPhail Im working silly hours to finally be rid of all the icky clothes i had to wear and get new ones that i like ~
Luckily i have my sister teaching me how to communicate better but she has little patience for me as some of the things i say are really stupid 😂

I think work is bringing out the real me as im really good with customers (my manager says im quirky but i dont know what that means) but when im outside of work i dont say a word to anyone, i like vanish into thin air (if that makes sense)

I will do my best!