No matter how much I look...

You're a genius, but, school just didnt move the needle for you. Or maybe it did. Who knows ??
I hope you find some peace. And if you already found it, hey, even better.

Maybe it’s your grammar “No matter how much I look” doesn’t make much sense. Unless you’re expecting someone to buy you.

Yes I'm awesome too.

This is hilarious...

The higher strata is the simplest strata. The lowest to some.

The fact that you failed out of college should have told you that you that in fact, you did not belong in the academic circle of things. That should have been obvious to you. If you find where your true circle lies, you will also find the people who have evolved to that same strata of life as you.