Relationship issues 🥰TL:DR

So basically my last post is too long so I’ll just make it short. Basically lately I’ve been a bit frustrated since I’m getting the idea of being a relationship (either when I’m bored or aroused). I also know that I should be patient about it but there are two problems: one is caring about what my family thinks and another is trying to find that “click” with someone. I’ve been relationships before where I felt like my family wouldn’t approve since a lot of them are racist, homophobic, transphobic, (you get the idea) so they never last really long. And I’ve considered moving away bc of it but idk if that actually work. As for the “click”, I sometimes feel that there’s a limit of ppl since there’s not much where I am (which is another reason why I wanted to move). Another thing is that I feel like recently I’ve been getting limerance bc of my last relationship (before the relationship we were bsf for years and went through everything together). So since then, I’ve (subconsciously) been attracted to ppl that I feel like my family would approve of and I believe this is affecting me horribly. And it’s upsetting bc ik what I want in a partner or what I want my relationship to be like, but I’m kinda afraid if this pattern is going to keep repeating itself over and over. And what’s even better is that I really want a partner, even though I’m having these issues, so I’m not sure what to do to fix this or how to get over these urges. (Btw I hold grudges pretty easily so that’s another thing I want to fix)