Struggling in my relationship
My fiance is making things difficult for me. Recently I had to quit my job because I couldn’t deal with the disrespect anymore. And I did get a new job but I’m having surgery and have to be out for awhile so I’m not starting for a month.
Which means money is horribly tight. I have credit card debt on hold and need to save for a new car. (Mine was hit by an uninsured driver).
So I try to say this and my fiancé immediately takes it to heart. We were calling today and my fiancé was saying oh I found some cute things I bought to put in your next box. Because we are very long distance, the price of shipping gift boxes to each other is horrible. I made comment saying could we wait until Christmas and my fiancé said so I’m getting shit all for my birthday.
Which isn’t true. I just can’t afford to spend $300 on it right now.
So I immediately feel like a piece of shit.
Then my fiancé wants to call everyday. If we don’t, I get these sulky texts. And I’m in a horrible place in my life. I’m starting to feel like I can’t handle a relationship and I don’t know what to do about it. I guess right now I just want to be alone. And I’m not given that. It’s just constant, “I’m not a priority.” Financially or otherwise. And I won’t lie, I don’t have money to brag about. I am poor. It’s embarrassing but it’s true. I’m not sure I’ll have money to eat this month.
Another thing is I know my fiancé is jealous of my dog which is awkward because I don’t think many ppl relate. But my fiancé puts a cat above me and I get it. So why do I have to feel bad for having a child like bond with mine.
Which means money is horribly tight. I have credit card debt on hold and need to save for a new car. (Mine was hit by an uninsured driver).
So I try to say this and my fiancé immediately takes it to heart. We were calling today and my fiancé was saying oh I found some cute things I bought to put in your next box. Because we are very long distance, the price of shipping gift boxes to each other is horrible. I made comment saying could we wait until Christmas and my fiancé said so I’m getting shit all for my birthday.
Which isn’t true. I just can’t afford to spend $300 on it right now.
So I immediately feel like a piece of shit.
Then my fiancé wants to call everyday. If we don’t, I get these sulky texts. And I’m in a horrible place in my life. I’m starting to feel like I can’t handle a relationship and I don’t know what to do about it. I guess right now I just want to be alone. And I’m not given that. It’s just constant, “I’m not a priority.” Financially or otherwise. And I won’t lie, I don’t have money to brag about. I am poor. It’s embarrassing but it’s true. I’m not sure I’ll have money to eat this month.
Another thing is I know my fiancé is jealous of my dog which is awkward because I don’t think many ppl relate. But my fiancé puts a cat above me and I get it. So why do I have to feel bad for having a child like bond with mine.
26-30, M
