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I talked to my therapist briefly the other day (I haven't been able to see them recently because they're booked)... They were nice enough to text with me for a short while when I had questions and was struggling with some bad thoughts.

Anyway... They said they believe I'm traumatized from my experiences growing up. And that really made me sad. Like... I kinda knew deep down that I'm traumatized. But I didn't like to think about it. Because it makes me resentful toward the people who did it, and I don't like negative feelings... Especially when things are over and done with.

I worry I'll be traumatized for the rest of my life. I really don't want to be. I want a normal, mentally and emotionally healthy life. I don't want my past experiences to be the basis of my life.

I'm not my trauma and it's not my fault what happened. I won't be defined by those experiences... But I'm going to accept what I am rather than run away... I'm traumatized.