I have to vent out...

I love my wife..weve had alot of fights..this time i hurt her real bad. I got hypersensitive and started babbling stupid crap towards her. I dont know what got into me..i already hate mysef for hurting her but i cant do anything right now..also next month is her birthday. I hope she forgives me still and work things out. I would dodge a bullet for her. I hate anger..all it did was consume and poison me and ends up with me hurting the love of my life. I adore her. More than words could explain..ive had issues i had to fix..i reslly really hope she forgives me. Im gonna go to church tomorrow and ask the Almighty she remove the anger in my wifes heart...