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Am I really so insecure with my writing that I allow one person's words to disturb me?
I was talking to my cousin earlier. I told them that I hope my writing career takes off soon. That I'd rather work full time as a writer instead working at my current part time job.
"That would be nice," they said. "That would be amazing."
The insecure part of my brain, which is quiet most of the time nowadays, decided to speak up in my mind: "They said would. Which means they don't believe in you. If they believed in you, they would have said that WILL be amazing. Not WOULD. They think you're dumb, Jupiter, dumb and incapable of being a real writer. Your destiny to be a failure is apparent in your eyes and they all see it."
This thought will go away soon but... right now I'm having to shush it up and lull it back to sleep.
I'm confident in my writing. I know I'm good at it. But what if I'm not as good as I think and I look like a fool?
I was talking to my cousin earlier. I told them that I hope my writing career takes off soon. That I'd rather work full time as a writer instead working at my current part time job.
"That would be nice," they said. "That would be amazing."
The insecure part of my brain, which is quiet most of the time nowadays, decided to speak up in my mind: "They said would. Which means they don't believe in you. If they believed in you, they would have said that WILL be amazing. Not WOULD. They think you're dumb, Jupiter, dumb and incapable of being a real writer. Your destiny to be a failure is apparent in your eyes and they all see it."
This thought will go away soon but... right now I'm having to shush it up and lull it back to sleep.
I'm confident in my writing. I know I'm good at it. But what if I'm not as good as I think and I look like a fool?
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