I Have Random Thoughts

I need someone to talk to, but I wouldn't even know where to begin. Usually when I tell someone what's going on, they dismiss every word of it, or they immediately try to convince me that they have it much worse. This has made me very closed-off. I really need someone in my life to talk to, but I have no one, and the thought of opening up once again is dreadful. I'm tired of life. I used to have a few things that I was holding onto, but those things seem to be slipping away. Given the results of my efforts, giving up really does seem like the best solution. It's a shame that it feels that way.

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greenmountaingal · 80-89, F

Feel free to message me if you need a sympathetic correspondent. I have an OK life now, and I am retired, though if you read my Featured story, you'll see that I have had some very tough times myself and know what trouble is about. I am an aging hippie and a retired school teacher of juvenile delinquents and mentally ill criminals (at the state mental hospital), have travelled a bit, like to read, write and garden, also have other interests as well. Lately, I've taken an interest in pro boxing.

Back in the 60s, I lived in SF in the Haight-Ashbury, knew a lot of interesting people. Later, I lived in Portland, Oregon, the world's nicest prettiest city, the City of Roses. Now I live in the desert near Los Angeles. I have no family.

AnonJohn · 36-40, M

@greenmountaingal I'm actually dealing with mental illness. I think it's the main factor behind everything. Do you think you could help me?

greenmountaingal · 80-89, F

@AnonJohn I'm not a psychologist or doctor. In fact, I'm seeing a shrink myself and taking meds. My own delusional mental illness, which lasted about 4 years, was caused by an out of control (bad medical treatment) bladder infection which went to my kidneys and then to my brain. Now I have a great doctor who gave me the right medications and cleared up the original underlying infection, so the mental illness has gone.