I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

i do not think i am cut out for this. i think i am not smart enough to stay in this school but i will be waiting until finals to see if my grades are in line with my thinking.

i don't mind not passing but i am afraid of disappointing my parents, ya know? like they spent so much: they rented a place just so i could be close to school, the tuition fee and the books are so expensive. i study and do what i can but it doesn't feel like it's enough, plus i am so very exhausted. i am not happy and i want to die