I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

Today I have been feeling off..Has anyone else got this? You have to rush to get out of bed, but your eyes won't wake up! I try to sleep at night, toss and turn, then roll over and realize I need more time to process what is going on in my head. I often have random thoughts.. for example; I will notice a fly on the wall and immediately, I am picturing how many wings and legs this fly has..After thirty minutes of deep thoughts on the fly, I start to picture other random things, how many ceiling tiles, how many tiles on my kitchen back splash, even how many circles are on my notebook spiral.
I try hard to understand what I am thinking about, but can't get to the core issue at hand...just want to be"normal" but the only problem is normal is setting..a setting on the dryer, the dryer is warm, it shakes, it makes noise; wow..random yet again..