I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

I don't think I've ever felt so lost.

My life has fallen to pieces in the space of two weeks and I'm just numb. Nothing feels real. I ended a relationship that made me unhappy, I thought freedom from that was the thing I wanted the most in the world. I thought I'd feel free. I just feel alone.

It feels like my life here has ended, I just want to run away but I'm waiting on my passport, money and bureaucracy... It feels like it will never happen. My Mother is a huge wildcard and I need documents proving that she's an Australian citizen. She lives in the UK so getting her to send me her citizenship papers is a massive headache. I have nightmares about being stuck in this tiny city at the bottom of the world forever, with no way out. I feel like I'm suffocating every time I think about it.