I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

Isn't it sad when the only reason you don't harm yourself is because you don't want the scars to show? I feel so detached, yet emotional all at the same time. I won't go into too much, because I realize it's unhealthy to let an online platform become your diary, but I am stressed upon stressed. I come home from work, go to school, then do homework, then get up to go to work again. It is literally a battle for me to get in my car, and drive to work without turning around. Once I get there, I am usually fine, but man, life is hard. Family life doesn't help either, as my parents will never begin to understand the independence that I want, and my grades are suffering. I don't feel like writing anymore. If you want more details, message me, but I doubt anyone will read this anyway.

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TURTLEGOD

I feel the same, thats why I quit my job but I know thats not feasible for everyone. I used to cut myself quite a bit but ive toned it down and now its less obvious because people were asking me about the scars and it seemed like people were starting to doubt that i actually got it from the oven. But then I started cutting on my leg... I could continue but thought I don't know exactly how you feel I can say that I have had a similar feeling. The only solution is to try and find a job that makes you happy, if that counts as advice or feel good words.

marilynmichelle · F

@TURTLEGOD Thank you for the reply. I relate to you a lot. I just have too much of a history with it, and my parents would recognize it immediately, and I feel like it would be too troublesome to switch jobs. I wish I could, though.

TURTLEGOD

@marilynmichelle Do your parents yell at you/do you get in trouble when they noticed that you have cut yourself?
I feel when I cut myself its because i am stressed, I want to feel alive, I want to die but am trying to hold on. I feel like people should try and keep that in mind when they see that someone has cut themselves. I feel most people react with disgust. But it is also kinda scary when people know, notice and kinda react with no reaction if that makes sense. But anyways if you need someone to talk too, im here too

marilynmichelle · F

@TURTLEGOD Thank you. Yeah, they do. Mainly my dad yells. My mom is more understanding. I haven't cut in years, but I've been tempted lately.

TURTLEGOD

@marilynmichelle I hope you can hold out and try not to let the stress pressure you (though I understand thats difficult). Though this isn't very positive whenever I get to real low I try to remember that my emotions only last for moments and things can only get so bad before they start to get better. I do slip sometimes too so I understand your situation. Stay strong💪

marilynmichelle · F

Thanks, you too!