I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

It's weird how I seem to enjoy writing more now that I'm only doing it for myself (although I always appreciate other people's input/acknowledgement). I just write what I feel like writing - whatever comes to me in the moment. Lately, I seem to be drawing upon day-to-day experiences to catalyse my thoughts and feelings about things. It seems I'm never short of topics to actually write about. I'm putting in less overall effort, but getting a whole lot more from the entire process. And the words just seem to flow together naturally.

I also have an extremely good motivation for doing all of this, and it literally just occurred to me in the past 10 minutes or so:

I observe a lack of substance and a lack of purpose within the direction of something, and I'm immediately compelled towards trying to reverse it, if only on my end. I'm compelled towards providing that substance and purpose that I believe is lacking in something else. It's actually pretty cool.

For some bizarre reason, the idea of being my own performer and my own audience is more exciting that I would have ever originally thought. (I wonder if I've stumbled upon an unconditional type of joy, in which I'm happy to continue doing what I'm doing with no dependence on any kind of outcome or result).