My brain is shot to the point of no return.

I'm extremely tired and couldn't remember my unlock pattern for my phone. My brain was in a massive fog and eventually it told me that I have 5 more tries until I'm made to factory reset. I won't lie I did cry a little due to frustration that I just couldn't remember. I actually dug my nails hard into my arm which is something I did in my younger years out of frustration or high stress. I either gouged myself or scratched myself so I was kind of surprised those tendencies were still in me since I hadn't done it in years. I was down to my final try when I finally got it right. I promptly switched from a pattern lock to a pin so I can remember easier I hope.

Honestly I wouldn't have freaked out if I didn't have photos of my deceased grandparents on there and of my deceased cat. I can't just simply take new photos of them so a factory reset would have been devastating in that way.

I think I'm just going to get high because I feel like I'm losing my marbles. Maybe being zonked out for awhile will fix things because things were just escalating too fast for my brain to handle. I can't handle anymore tonight.