I am in the dark place

Right now.

I am going to start calling it the Upsidedown....because that is a seriously appropriate analogy of the darkness of the world around us and the darkness of depression and anxiety.

Right is left, left is down, up is right, down is left.

I have had some equally dark thoughts.

I won't write them or say them outloud. ...because that might lend some extra weight to them...but it isn't a normal thing for me to have these thoughts.

I am not sure how to bring myself back from this.

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Mindfulness

Concentrate on happy memories, surround yourself with positive people and thoughts.

Talk to someone. ❤🙏

JaggedLittlePill · 46-50, F

@Mindfulness My writing here is me talking. It is the best i can do right now.

My therapist is a long drive and i have struggled to get myself there.

I am dealing with all new anxiety...anxiety of going out in the world and I am working on that.

Mindfulness

@JaggedLittlePill it's tough, after the passed few years, very tough.
You're not alone, many people are struggling.

How are you coping?

JaggedLittlePill · 46-50, F

@Mindfulness I created a routine for myself and the kids and have a plan to implement it. Just it is going to take time to really start and keep to. I need to make a space for all of it to go ...so it is a space we look at daily and keep us on track. It will help me not sit on the couch all day. It will help them take more responsibility...

My other issue is i have two other people to help on top of helping myself. I really am managing the mental health and overalll wellbeing of three people. Mine tends to be the last i deal with.

Mindfulness

@JaggedLittlePill It sounds likecyou have a good action plan, and support network.

Just don't neglect yourself.

You can't help others if you're running on empty.