I Have Something to Say

I just dont feel like doing anything anymore. Its gotten so bad i dont even want to cook for myself. I dont want to go swimming at the gym, I want to quit my job because i dont like it, i eat unhealthy junk such as fried foods and sugary things at work because i get bored or i just dont feel like cooking or finding anything to eat. I'm stuck in the house and i dont like driving my mom's van. I wish she would stop telling me that the van's outside and to get in it and go. I dont feel like driving half the time. Things that i use to like doing dont interest me anymore like video games, and watching tv. I've gotten to the point where i've been saying "i dont feel like going anywhere" and when i do get out i end up saying "i dont want to go home". Whats wrong with me? I've become more irritated. Things that didnt use to bother me are pushing me to the point where i almost can't control my anger. For a few hours i'd be ok then the next i'll be angry or sad about something that doesnt matter. I've become less patient, and cant control my emotions. No need of telling my mom this. She'll probably just tune me out or tell me that things will get better and to stop thinking so negative. I just want everyone to leave me alone. I know this is all over the place but this is in the order of how my brain is thinking. I worry about my future 90% of the time. I always compare myself to others. You can say i have distorted thinking. If someone is criticizing me constructively I breakdown. I instantly feel like i'm not good enough and never will be. I've changed what i want to be at least 6 different times because i thought it sounded to hard or i wasnt smart enough. If someone looks at me a certain way i think they dont like me, they think i'm mean, or they think i'm stupid. I'm not living my life like i want to. I just feel bad.