Ugh.... how long does Widow-brain last?

I felt like I was on the brink of a panic attack today. I went shopping at Walmart and after I got all my junk on one end of the store I went to the grocery side.

I had it in my mind that I would buy just a bunch of groceries and stock up. (I only buy a few meal ideas once in a while I still can’t plan anything)

I went up and down several aisles and all I had was chocolate milk and two cans of stewed tomatoes.

I felt so defeated and confused. I started sweating and got tunnel vision. I literally felt like I was panicking because I couldn’t figure out how to buy groceries.

As weird as this is I was telling myself that my cart was full of groceries over and over again until I could focus enough on getting my things and leaving the store.

Am I ever gonna function like a normal person? 🥺

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MrPerditus1 · 61-69, M

I wish I could tell you there was a time frame to all this, but honestly, I have no idea. I've never been in a place like that so don't really know personally. But, I would suppose it's like any deep loss, it takes a different amount of time for each person dealing with what you're going through.

You just take it one day and step at a time. It's not helpful I know, but it's what I know from the things I have dealt with, which is nothing in comparison. Just turn to any friends that you can, when you can. I know it's difficult right now, but I'm sure they'd understand and talk about your feelings, like you're doing here. Just do your best to fight through the panic. Breathing and refocusing can help at times so if you practice that when you don't need it, you might find you'll be better when you do.

I really hope things even out for you and that you can get your sure footing once again. Just don't give up. You have a lot more strength in you than you might know. My best wishes and sorry I couldn't be of any real help. I can only hope something I said might ring true.

Take care and stay safe. 🤗

realrare · 51-55, F

@MrPerditus1 thank you 🙏