Are you stuck in a house full of people who don't care about you?

Growing up and living with my tiger parents has never been easy. My mother was never there to calm me when I'd cry my eyes out. My father sometimes came to my room so that I stop crying after awhile into it. But he stopped doing that too. And he started calling me an emotional fool. Now that I've gotten so used to it, I don't even expect anything from them anymore.

Now, during the pandemic everyone has been locked up at home in isolation. It really is a tough time for all of us. And, I can't go to school anymore or see my friends. Talking on the phone isn’t nearly good enough and my mom won't even let me visit my friend.

Escaping this household and moving out of here is really the only thing I count on in my life anymore since I have nothing else to hold onto.

It is hard, especially in the country that I live in. And my best bet is to study abroad and I'm counting on them to pay for it, somewhat. And, behaving myself, so that they don’t turn their backs on me and I rot here for the rest of my life or take my life.

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33person · 26-30, M

*Hugs*
This is an extremely difficult situation that you are in. As an "emotional fool" myself, though I can't imagine what you are going through, I know that I would have a very difficult time. We should all have a sense of self-worth, but it's very hard when that does not come from our parents much or at all. I am glad you HAVE some friends who value you very much, but it sucks that you have to spend all your time around people who don't value you and that you can only talk to people who value you on the phone or see them rarely in public.

You will escape. You will keep working hard. You will not forget the purpose of what you're doing. You will let your friends know when you are losing motivation, and we will help you to regain it. The best motivation comes from within, but there is a reason we have friends. We are here to help you when you need it and to do the best we can to give you the love and support that your parents won't. We're not meant to be a replacement for parents, so it's still incredibly unjust. But we want to see you become free and empowered over your life.

MysterySci · 22-25, F

Thanks. :) @33person