I Have Something to Say

I will die alone. When I am vulnerable, I do no trust the person will like me on the other side or think my feelings are worth the weight I've attached to them. If they do like me, usually it's when I'm connected to another person or group whether that be my siblings, friends or my spouse. I am not an individual. I mean nothing. Don't tell me to go to counseling. I've been there. Will someone ever love me for me? And please don't give me the trite yes or no.